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- Who is your best friend and where did you meet your best friend? My best friend is someone I went to high school with and still keep in touch. We met each other somewhere during our 9th-10th grade but really became close in 11th grade and never really separated. Her name is Juste and she's one of the kindest and sweetest people I know; she's always there for me, never turns down an offer to get our faces stuffed with pizza and is genuinely a very nice person. I'm very happy to have her in my life and it's a wonder how we've managed to stay in touch with how busy we both are (she studies Danish, so it's a bit of a pickle to meet up with all of her assignments), but we manage somehow. She's the perfect panda to have as a friend. ♥
What is your greatest achievement? Hmm, I guess getting into law school with a government-funded position is one of the bigger ones right now, even if it might not look like much. It's a lot of hard work to stay in this position and I'm happy that I've yet to lose my funding or be kicked out of the faculty. Another bigger feat I've accomplished in the past year is finishing a draft for my first novel. It still needs to be rewritten, but it's definitely a start.
Who is someone you aspire to be like? My father. He has been a model of how a good lawyer should be and how a kind, compassionate and just person should appear in a community of thieves and liars. I love and respect my dad a lot and I'd like to be like him someday. While not as liberal as tolerant as I am, he is a very smart, talented and capable person and I hope that I inherited even a bit of his wit and/or logic. That'd be enough.
Are you a birthday person? Not really. I'm not a huge fan of people invading my personal space; being congratulated online or given a present from someone I hold dear is always nice, but I get very uncomfortable when people sing to me or try to bring me away from home to celebrate. I don't think that getting one year older is a big achievement in itself as it'll happen naturally and there are far more important things to do around my birthday.
What is your dream job? I always wanted to be a creator. And while it might not be a realistic dream right now to live off of writing in a different language that isn't my native, I keep the possibility of becoming a famous writer somewhere in the back of my head. Of course, the best option would be to become a prosecutor and later move on to be a judge, but that depends on the future and how well I do in legal practice. But I'd like not to give up on that old dream to be a writer and share my creations with others. Sending a message with books is more useful than putting people into jail.
What is your zodiac sign? Do you think it fits you? I'm a Capricorn! What I know about myself from various horoscope-themed articles and books, is that Capricorns are natural rule-followers. They thrive on order and love strict rules, hierarchies and set ways to do things. I believe this represents me well, given how I'm studying a discipline related to following rules and not going against the law. I don't like experimental techniques when it comes to achieving success and I'd rather have a detailed plan on how to do something. Capricorns are known to stress themselves out by doing everything to the point of perfection and I feel like this relates to my Myers-Briggs personality type, too. We're also known to have a very sly sense of humour, or, in my case, it's very dark and often revolves around death. We're realistic and take responsibility for our actions, which I think represents me well. c:
What are some goals you want to accomplish in five years? First of all, I'd like to complete my Master's degree in the field that I'm yearning to go. I'd also love to not give up on writing and continue creating things, most importantly, serious novels and projects that have been lying around for years. I guess that getting my license and moving out of my parents' home, as well as getting a job are some routine tasks that should be tackled in the near future, too. I'd love to go back to the carefree, confident and cheery person I used to be a few years ago, but it's been a difficult road and many people managed to force me to bring up a mask and, eventually, become the mask itself. So finding my own centre would be great. I want to be happy. :')
Name three places you’d like to vacation if money wasn’t an issue. I wanna visit Finland again! We used to go every few years with my family but then my mum decided it's too cold, so we don't go anymore and it can get a bit expensive to visit Lapland without enough budget. I also can't seem to get enough of London and want to visit again until it grows boring. The third place I'd like to visit the most if it wasn't so far or expensive, is New Zealand. I just want to feel like I'm a part of the Lord of the Rings and go hiking once my heart and body don't have to carry the excess weight I have on. xD
If you knew you could never fail, what is something you’d attempt to do? I am frightened by the mere idea of being perfect. Without failure, none of us can learn to be better. I've been raised to do my hardest to become a better person and change over the years into someone more talented or clever. The mere prospect of not being able to look back and see a different person staring back at me is terrifying. I can't live without the aspect of failure.
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? Definitely not. Some people are just too selfish or cruel and no matter how kindly you treat them, they will never learn their lesson unless all chances of redemption are taken back and they change before trying again. I keep remembering this scene from the first Assassin's Creed where Malik teaches Altaïr that he can't accept his apology because he's changed as a person, thus, has nothing to apologise for. And I strongly believe that this should be the only exception when a truly corrupt person would deserve a second chance in life.
What are you paranoid about? About 75% of my life, honestly. I tend to make a catastrophe out of everything, so it's been difficult to live normally. I'm paranoid about not getting into my preferred law branch, not passing my exams and not getting a degree. I'm paranoid that everyone is my friend because they want something from me, thus, I need constant reassurance that I'm not being stupid. And I'm paranoid that people have dated me in the past out of pity and they're sometimes there because they feel sorry for me. I also fear that I won't ever lose this extra weight and not feel comfortable in my skin until the day I die. Many things plague my mind but I'm slowly learning to change my view of the world and look at the bright side, haha.
What language(s) do you want to learn? I'd like to learn Prussian some day or finish my studies of Russian and Latin. I don't know why, but older languages just call out to me in a more personal way than the usual ones do, e.g., German, etc. I'd also like to learn Finnish at some point in life, even though I've heard it's one of the most difficult languages to master. Swahili should be somewhere on the list! Dear Lord, I'm such a language nerd.
What language(s) can you speak on a decent level? I speak fluently both Lithuanian and English (though, I prefer to use the UK variant when it comes to writing). I have an A2-B1 level in French and the very basics of Russian and Latin. I can't speak Russian too well, but I can read and write decently.
Who was your first celebrity crush? Hugh Jackman, hands down. I never really got into the usual craze about young-looking men like Justin Bieber or anyone from One Direction and preferred to look at older actors and, I don't know, they just look better in my opinion. Apart from a selected few.
What are three things you want to do before you die? I want to live a life without any regrets. I want to matter and be remembered for the good I've done for this world or something that I created. And I guess that I'd like to make those around me proud of me and not see me as a waste of time.